|new.. and in desperate need of help
||[Feb. 6th, 2005|12:22 pm]
B r o k e n B e y o n d R e p a i r <\3
hey everyone - my name's allie, i'm 14. and i'm one of the only 14 year olds in my town, or school, that's ever been in love, truly. it started in 6th grade, i knew this guy since pre school but we were never really interested in eachother until then. we dated for about 3 months, he "cheated" on me with my best friend. then we went out again, cheated on me again with my best friend. went out again, same deal. no, i know - i should have learned then but i didn't. then we went out again, but that time i cheated on him. then we went out again, broke up with me cause he liked my best friend. then i lost my best friend. then we went out again, and i thought he really loved me, he says he did.. but i just don't know, we broke up. i'm a freshman in highschool now, and i've held onto those emotions for 3, almost 4, years.|
the most recent time we were involved with eachother, it was really hard. his mother hates me, blahblahblah. well, for the past three weeks now, i knew something was wrong but i couldn't figure out what it was. he stopped telling me he loved me and became distant as days passed. i didn't know what to do, but i had my doubts and my ideas. i accused him of liking this girl, dana (ugly bitch) and he DENIED it straight to my face. well, believe it or not. last night - he fucking asks her out. so now, not only did he lie straight to my face about not liking her but he lied to me about his feelings for me. he didn't even drop me he just started avoiding me. i gave him so much, i don't understand how you can love every girlfriend but the one who gives you the most. please help, anyone? i didn't get any sleep last night, i couldn't stop crying. i also cut last night, for the first time in a while. i used to be a cutter, but i stopped. he's not worth it!